went to lecture today...

we didn't even say hi... didn't make eye contact... didn't even acknowledge each others' presence...

i just went about my way, talking to friends, going for lunch, going home...

why did it have to turn out this way???

if i could turn back the clock, i would just be a friend...

at least there wouldn't be awkwardness, there wouldn't be anything to cry over or be upset about...

some say it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all...

somehow i disagree...

cos right now, whatever i'm going through, whatever i'm feeling, how this whole thing has affected and is still affecting my life far outweighs the happy memories...

it's sad... just been over a month, but i've forgotten what happiness is... how it feels to be in love and be happy...