he broke up w me yesterday... 23rd dec...

no one told me it would hurt that bad but it did..

i cried myself to sleep last night.. it was so painful.. i carn remember if i even got to sleep.. for everytime i closed my eyes, memories started pouring back..

my eyes hurt, my nose hurt, my head hurt and my heart hurt so bad i thought i was going to die... so suffocatingly painful i couldn't breathe...

it was a long long time since i felt so happy.. enjoying the sea breeze in my hair, soft sand under my feet, stresses and problems temporarily thrown behind my mind...

the place i brought u.. was a place of happy memories.. i grew up there.. it was a place my parents brought me to since young... a place with nothing but good memories.. i wanted to share with u my happy memories.. the wonderful peaceful atmosphere i've always loved.. away from the crowds.. just u and me..

just 2 days from christmas.. a time for get together, for cheer and laughter, for joy and happiness...

so cruel...

so harsh...

now, tt place and christmas can only be another reminder of how my heart was broken, smashed into pieces.. words cannot describe what i felt...

i couldn't say anything.. what could i? thank you for making me feel this way?

i felt horrible... no.. horrible is such an understatement...

why... why do this to me??? couldn't there have been a better time? couldn't you have given me more time to sort out my feelings and feel more prepared???

why of all days yesterday and at the very place i loved so dearly... y...y...y...

i'm not as brave as i thought i was... it's so tiring to look happy in front of my friends when inside i'm just torn apart... trying so hard to put up a brave front...

it hurts so bad...

i cry alone everytime...

even the sky wept with me........