an old post from my ex blog:

i've got so much to say and i dunno where to start... so ironical... sigh...

k lemme try... starting from Nationals... i screwed the whole damn thing up... was extremely disappointed with myself and my score... 311... up from 308 in the last competition... i trained so hard, put so much time and effort into air pistol then this is the result... super sad... somemore i kinda neglected my studies... so cts are definitely gone already... haha... see lar... actually had quite high expectations for the comp... mainly cos i've been training hard and improving quite steadily over the june hols. at the start of hols, i was shooting 158 for 20 shots... by the end of june i was hitting 17o and above... in fact just before the comp i hit 173.... so wat went wrong??? i realli don't know for sure. could be these few reasons.

stress/nervous/train too much the day b4/arm chose to be naughty on comp day/etc.....

dunno lar... but my arm did feel weird... slightly achy but didn't tink much of it... tot i could still shoot my usual standard... but it was not to be i guess. SAD and DEPRESSING... realli...

then my results; downright horrid and disgusting... don't even want to say lar.. sigh.. double blow... couldn't take it!!! all these emotions pent up inside... it was horrible... realli couldn't help it. i cried...

but life goes on... always have next time.... so i shall not tink so much about all these neg stuff and look ahead instead... as i said... I"M A STRONG GAL!!!! haha yup... so... i'll be fine... just gimme a couple more days to feel sad, depressed and sorry for myself... then i'll be ok and rearing to go again!!!



if onli i could muster tt kinda courage and determination... feel so weak right now...